Tuesday, October 30, 2007 The Others When I look at Olivia, there is no doubt in my mind that she is my dream come true. My favorite song to sing to her is "It Had to Be You" (I don't know all the words but I make them up). It is these thoughts that leads me to think about the others. In the creation of my dream come true, there were five dreams that didn't make it. Five 8 celled wonders who could have been upstairs sleeping, just like my dear Olivia. I can't help but wonder...how many were girls...how many were boys...would they have looked like there daddy or did they look like me...what would there personalities have been? It is not a thought that depresses or consumes me. Just one that tugs on my heart when I get to thinking that I can't imagine Olivia being anybody other than who she is. There are two who are left. The same questions enter my mind. Do either of them look like Olivia? They are her twins, her frozen genetic twins. I hope that some day we get to meet one (or both) of them. If not, like the other five, they will live forever in my heart. Whispers of love that I never met or held, but who's picture I saw briefly as I hoped for their existence. Thank you Olivia for being who you are, it had to be you....but who were the others? posted by Just another Jenny @ 8:52 PM   28 Comments: At 10:26 PM,  Samantha said… I hope you get to meet them too. Your words touched me greatly.   At 10:37 PM,  sky girl said… What a wonderful and touching post Jen.   At 11:46 AM,  Anonymous said… Mine all died, but none are forgotten. I hope you get to meet your other two.   At 5:31 PM,  seattlegal said… I think about mine that didn't make it quite a bit...wondering about the same things you wonder about. Hopefully, you will get to meet your other two.   At 2:19 AM,  soralis said… I know what you are saying. I am really haunted by all my lost snowflakes, especially missy's twin. I still have 6 on 'ice' and I can't bare not to try with them. The pangs of IF still linger on... Take care   At 12:03 PM,  mary ellen said… I hope that you get to meet them too.   At 10:57 PM,  Kari said… This is such a touching post. I lost one baby, before I was blessed with my little pricess, and I have these same emotions about the one I didn't get to meet.   At 9:40 AM,  Seamus said… Small smile through a little tear - moving post Jenny.   At 1:46 PM,  Anonymous said… I hope you are doing ok. We haven't heard from you in a while. Write again soon!   At 1:30 PM,  Bside said… I am new to blogging about my secondary IF. I stumbled across your blog. I have PCOS and have been TTC for 2 years now. I just wanted to let you know that your post was sweet, and your title is cute. Speaking of cute, your baby is soo adorable. - Kenya at http://babybevans.blogspot.com/   At 10:23 AM,  Jaimie said… I hope you and Olivia have the best Christmas ever! (and the rest of your family too)   At 4:01 PM,  Smarshy said… Where you at, girl   At 4:51 PM,  decemberbaby said… I just needed to jump in with the lyrics: It had to be you It had to be you I wandered around And finally found somebody who Could make me feel true Could make me feel blue And even be glad just to be sad Thinking of you. Some others I've seen Might never be mean Might never be cross Or try to be boss But they wouldn't do For nobody else gives me a thrill With all of your faults I love you still It had to be you, wonderful you It had to be you.   At 2:41 PM,  Sassy said… It's such an odd idea I find, that there are these little beings that are right there but are all the same, so far away. I wish there were answers to all your questions.   At 1:22 PM,  Anonymous said… oh how I miss reading gyour entries...   At 10:05 AM,  Gemini Girl said… where are you? hope all is well!   At 11:41 AM,  Thalia said… jenny?? Helloooooo? We miss you, come back and tell us how you are.   At 4:53 PM,  TeamWinks said… Hey, wondering where you went!   At 8:28 PM,  K-Lough said… I miss reading your posts. Hope all is well.   At 11:04 AM,  Anonymous said… i hope you are ok. how is your baby?   At 5:47 PM,  Seamus said… Hey!!!! Just rattling your cage! Hope things are well with you and yours!   At 12:39 PM,  Shauna said… Where arrre yooooou??? I've been a lurker in the past, but if you come back, I promise to change my ways!   At 12:15 PM,  Anonymous said… Happy belated First Birthday to your little one. Would love to see pictures of her party.   At 9:07 PM,  Anonymous said… Did your baby die?   At 9:36 AM,  Kimmer said… Jenny, I miss you, please update. I hope that all is okay!   At 10:21 PM,  Jamie said… I hope you are okay too. I've kept your blog in my blogroll forever as I hope to see you again someday.   At 1:53 PM,  Hopeful Mother said… Just checking in... we miss you!   At 4:17 PM,  A said… This was a heartwrenchingly beautiful post.   Post a Comment Links to this post:   <$BlogBacklinkTitle$>   <$BlogBacklinkSnippet$> posted by <$BlogBacklinkAuthor$> @ <$BlogBacklinkDateTime$> Create a Link << Home